Monthly recap | December & 2013.

I always enjoy watching recaps from other bloggers, so that’s why I’ll be posting my own recaps. This wrap up is also my new ‘Showcase Sunday’ since I don’t have the time to do weekly hauls. Instead, I hope to capture it in vlogs every now and then.

Review 224. Kendare Blake - Anna dressed in blood.

9378297 Title: Anna dressed in blood.
Author: Kendare Blake.
Pages: 316.
Published: September 2011 by Tom Doherty
Sort: Part one of ‘Anna’

Cas Lowood, armed with his late father's athame knife, kills ghosts. In Thunder Bay, Anna, forever 16, drips blood on her white dress from throat slit in 1958, and rips apart anyone who enters her house - except Cas. He makes new friends - high school queen Carmel, jock Will, admiring nerd Thomas and Tom's voodoo grandpa Morfran - to fight this demon.

It took me some time to get in the story, but when we came to the part where Cas meets Anna, I was completely hooked. I never thought that a YA book could be scary and bloody like this, because I haven’t got much luck with YA horror books so far. But at the same time, I don’t think it was too scary. Someone who doesn’t like ghost books is definitely capable of reading and enjoying this.

Blogging resolutions 2014.

Merry Christmas! I hope you'll all get to spend time with your loved ones. Have a wonderful holiday! I will be celebrating three Christmas days, because yes, we totally invented a third day. The first day is with my boyfriends mother, brother and sister. Second day I will be home and he will visit his father. The third day is with my father, mother and sister. I look forward to it and the last day we will be exchanging gifts :D

Today I want to show you my blogging resolutions. I don't have many, but it might inspire you!

1. The first one is immediately the most important one. Keep having fun! That is what blogging is all about after all. I truly enjoy blogging and socializing on different platforms. I want to be able to keep that feeling. I want to keep it stress-free - just posting when I can and want.

2. I want to try to keep up with my discussion posts. The reactions are so much fun and I think it adds something unique and interesting to the blog. I might include some more personal stuff, because that is also something I enjoy reading.

3. I want to succeed in my new reading challenges. I finished ALL of them in 2013 and I want to do it again. Some things I want to complete are: reading 120 books (GR challenge) and finishing at least 12 series.

4. I want to do something more spectacular for my upcoming 2nd blogoversary. I still have no idea what I want to do, but I'm going to brainstorm about it.

5. I spend a lot of time on commenting on other blogs and I hope to keep it that way. I like to spread love and show others that I appreciate their effort. I'm not sure if school is going to allow it, but I will try!

And, that is it actually. Do you have any resolutions? Yes, which one?

Review 223. Michelle Hodkin - The unbecoming of Mara Dyer.

The Unbecoming of Mara Dyer (Mara Dyer, #1)Title: The unbecoming of Mara Dyer.
Author: Michelle Hodkin.
Pages: 452.
Published: March 1st 2012 by Simon Pulse UK
Sort: Part one of ‘Mara Dyer’
Source: I won a copy from Judith @ Paperiot.

Mara Dyer doesn’t think life can get any stranger than waking up in a hospital with no memory of how she got there. It can. She believes there must be more to the accident she can’t remember that killed her friends and left her mysteriously unharmed. There is. She doesn’t believe that after everything she’s been through, she can fall in love. She’s wrong.

This book was my Epic Rec recommendation from Juhina @ Maji bookshelf. I’m so happy I finally took the time to read this book, because it was good! I’m not completely in love, but definitely interested enough for the next book.

Fairytale News | Growing up as a reader.

'Mel on reading' is a little feature I created as part of my Fairytale news. It's my way to show my thoughts on topics that go from pet peeves in reading to my favorite things in books.

I got awesome responds on my discussion post, where I talked about being embarrassed because of the books you read – and why you shouldn’t be! The comments made me think of a new topic and today I want to talk about support from your surroundings.

Review 222. Richelle Mead – Vampire Academy.

345627 Title: Vampire Academy.
Author: Richelle Mead.
Pages: 332.
Published: August 16th 2007 by Razorbill
Sort: Part one of ‘Vampire Academy.’

St. Vladimir’s Academy isn’t just any boarding school—it’s a hidden place where vampires are educated in the ways of magic and half-human teens train to protect them. Rose Hathaway is a Dhampir, a bodyguard for her best friend Lissa, a Moroi Vampire Princess. They’ve been on the run, but now they’re being dragged back to St. Vladimir’s—the very place where they’re most in danger... Rose and Lissa become enmeshed in forbidden romance, the Academy’s ruthless social scene, and unspeakable nighttime rituals. But they must be careful lest the Strigoi—the world’s fiercest and most dangerous vampires—make Lissa one of them forever.

I finally started this series for two reasons. Judith recommended this series a couple of times and we might go and watch the movie with our bookclub. While this isn’t the best book I’ve ever read, I thought it was very enjoyable.

Life of a blogger: Career.

This is the wonderful meme over at Novel Heartbeat! I love reading about the careers of other bloggers, so today I want to show you mine.

Review 221. Cristin Terrill - All our yesterdays.

17451105Title: All our yesterdays.
Author: Cristin Terrill.
Pages: 362.
Published: August 1st 2013 by Bloomsbury Childrens
Sort: Part one of ‘All our yesterdays’
Source: Netgalley & Publisher.

Em is locked in a bare, cold cell with no comforts. Finn is in the cell next door. The Doctor is keeping them there until they tell him what he wants to know. Trouble is, what he wants to know hasn't happened yet. Em and Finn have a shared past, but no future unless they can find a way out. The present is torture - being kept apart, overhearing each other's anguish as the Doctor relentlessly seeks answers. There's no way back from here, to what they used to be, the world they used to know. Then Em finds a note in her cell which changes everything. It's from her future self and contains some simple but very clear instructions. Em must travel back in time to avert a tragedy that's about to unfold. Worse, she has to pursue and kill the boy she loves to change the future.
First I want to say: Don’t hit me Debby ;) I tried, but this book failed to impress me. I liked it, that’s for sure, but I wasn’t blown away. I honestly thought I’d like this book much more than I did.. I think it's because of my disconnection with the characters. If you are able to do that, I think you're up for a very good book!

Review 220. Michelle Diener – Mistress of the wind.

Title: Mistress of the wind.
Author: Michelle Diener.
Pages: 350.
Published: December 23rd 2013 by Michelle Diener.
Sort: Stand-alone.
Source: eARC from the author.

Bjorn needs to find a very special woman . . . 
The fate of his people, and his own life, depends on it. But when he does find her, she is nothing like he imagined, and may just harbor more secrets than he does himself.
  Astrid has never taken well to commands. No matter who issues them... She's clashed her whole life with her father, and now her lover, the mysterious man who comes to her bedroom in darkness and disappears to guard his mountain by day as a bear, is finding it out the hard way. And when he's taken by his enemies, no one is prepared for Astrid's response.  It is never wise to anger the mistress of the wind.

This story is a grown-up retelling from ‘East of the moon, west of the sun.’ Michelle contacted me to ask if I wanted to be a bèta-reader. I'm still honored she asked me and she even mentioned my name in the acknowledgement!  The basic of this story:

Monthly recap | November '13. Anniversary.

This is a new feature I like to introduce, based on many other recaps you can often find around the blogosphere. I always enjoy reading these, so I thought it was about time to do it myself :)

Review 219. Samantha Shannon – The bone season.

13636400Title: The bone season.
Author: Samantha Shannon.
Pages: 452.
Published: August 20th 2013 by Bloomsbury Publishing
Sort: Part one of ‘The bone season’
It is the year 2059. Several major world cities are under the control of a security force called Scion. Paige Mahoney works in the criminal underworld of Scion London, part of a secret cell known as the Seven Seals. The work she does is unusual: scouting for information by breaking into others’ minds. Paige is a dreamwalker, a rare kind of clairvoyant, and in this world, the voyants commit treason simply by breathing. But when Paige is captured and arrested, she encounters a power more sinister even than Scion. The voyant prison is a separate city—Oxford, erased from the map two centuries ago and now controlled by a powerful, otherworldly race. These creatures, the Rephaim, value the voyants highly—as soldiers in their army. Paige is assigned to a Rephaite keeper, Warden, who will be in charge of her care and training. He is her master. Her natural enemy. But if she wants to regain her freedom, Paige will have to learn something of his mind and his own mysterious motives.

I’m going to be honest and say that I had some difficulty understanding this complex and rich world-building. I still have the idea I didn’t get half of it and this made it hard to connect with the story in the beginning. I felt overwhelmed by all the terms and information, but luckily, the characters made up for it.

Fairytale News | Hard life of a reader (5)

'Mel on reading' is a little feature I created as part of my Fairytale news. It's my way to show my thoughts on topics that go from pet peeves in reading to my favorite things in books.

I’m back with some more things that makes our life as readers a little more difficult. This is a OUAT edition.

You can’t read fast enough.

Book after book after book are published. Every year is filled with these amazing lists of books you want to read. Whether they are stand-alones, sequels or the start of a new series: you want them all. The only problem is, what about all the older books? The ones from last year or even 3 years ago? What about the books you’ve bought and piled up in your room? The problem with us is that we always want more. We’re actually just greedy people who buy more than they can chew (not that there is something wrong with that of course. It’s also a fact that you never have enough books.) If there was only a way to read faster, to get more hours in a day or to stop time while reading.

Review 218. Leila Sales - This song will save your life.

15777621Title: This song will save your life.
Author: Leila Sales.
Pages: 288.
Published:  September 17th 2013 by Farrar, Straus and Giroux (BYR)
Sort: Stand-alone.
Making friends has never been Elise Dembowski’s strong suit. All throughout her life, she’s been the butt of every joke and the outsider in every conversation. When a final attempt at popularity fails, Elise nearly gives up. Then she stumbles upon a warehouse party where she meets Vicky, a girl in a band who accepts her; Char, a cute, yet mysterious disc jockey; Pippa, a carefree spirit from England; and most importantly, a love for DJing.

“Sometimes people think they know you. They know a few facts about you, and they piece you together in a way that makes sense to them. And if you don’t know yourself very well, you might even believe that they are right. But the truth is, that isn’t you. That isn’t you at all.”

I don’t read many contemporaries. There are several reasons for that, but after seeing many positive reviews I was too curious. This also happened with John Green – The fault in our stars and since that book was a huge success for me, I decided to give this one a shot. It’s fun to branch out every now and then and I am so happy I did it. This story touched me on an emotional and personal level. I must admit that it was a bit.. tough sometimes, but I love the message this book contains.

I’m sorry that there is such a personal touch in this review. I don’t want it to be all about ‘me’, but this had to be said.

Epic Recs: December.

Maybe you've noticed that I'm slowly starting to come back and that's all because of my awesome grandfater & grandmother. They both have their own computer, so I can borrow their laptop as long as I need (yes, they are pretty modern!) I think I lost all the files I haven't stored on my back-up, like my list of unfinished series and my spreadsheet of ARC'S.. But I keep telling myself there are worse things in the world, I just hope I get my own laptop back soon!

epic recssssssssss

You might be familiar with this concept. It was created by Amber & Judith to push each other to read certain books. They’ve opened it up for other bloggers as well and I got a tweet from Juhina who is the blogger of Maji Bookshelf if I was interested to join her! December is going our first month and we’ll see how it goes from there on. I'm so excited :D

My recommendation for her:
Juliet Marillier – Daughter of the forest.
Like you might now, she is one of my favorite adult authors. This book is based on a fairy tale and it has Celtic influences. I can’t wait for her to meet Marillier!

My recommendation from Juhina:
Michelle Hodkin – The unbecoming of Mara Dyer.
I’ve won this book on Judith’s blog and I can’t wait to finally read it! This is the perfect opportunity to give it a try.


What do you think about the books we picked?

Laptop broke down.

Hey guys!

Just wanted to let you know that my laptop died today.. Which means that I lost almost everything that has to do with my blog (and more..). I'm not sure I'll be able to comment a lot until it's fixed, so I'm sorry and I will try to catch up as soon as I can! I'm still here ;)

In the mean time, I will leave you sexy Hook.

Review 217. Suzanne Weyn – The diamond secret.

5928862Title: The diamond secret.
Author: Suzanne Weyn.
Pages: 240.
Published: June 2nd 2009 by Simon Pulse.
Sort: Part of the ‘Once upon a time’ series.
Nadya is a mischievous kitchen girl in a Russian tavern. Having nearly drowned in the Iset River during the turmoil of the Revolution, she has no memory of her past and longs for the life she cannot remember. Then two young men arrive at the tavern and announce that Nadya's long-lost grandmother has sent them to find her. Yearning for family and friendship, she agrees to accompany them to Paris for the joyful reunion. Nadya eagerly embarks on her journey, never dreaming it will be one of laughter, love...and betrayal.


Most of the things I know about Anastasia comes from the lovely movie (which is not made by Disney, but by Fox animation studios. I hear that mistake often) and this book is pretty similar, but misses the magic. Where I absolutely love the movie even if it's not 100% accurate, this book had too many flaws to really enjoy.

First of, I couldn't connect with the characters. The two guys (already forgot their names, I'm sorry) are looking for a replacement of Anastasia because her grandmother offers a huge amount of money. There are rumours that she survived the murder on the Royal Family. One of the guys worked in the palace at that time and he saw how Anastasia was killed in front of his eyes. He is very sceptical about the rumours, but they come across a tavern girl called Nadya. Her looks are remarkable and her amnesia about most of her past is very convenient. The only thing she knows is that she was taken from a mental institution. On their way, they change her appearance and help her adapt to her possible new future. Nadya doesn't know that the two guys are in for the money and she falls in love with one (bet you didn't see that coming?)

I just didn't feel it. Everyone is so distant and I didn't really care for Nadya. She is naive and she believes the guys without thinking about it. The reunion with her possible grandmother didn't touch me and meh. Didn't work for me.

The second thing is the fact that everything comes together SO easily. They HAPPEN to stumble across her. And no, like I said, the movie has something magical and here it's just bland. BUT, with this book, I finished the complete Once upon a time series which consists of 19 books! You can find all my reviews over here: Once upon a time series label.

Review 216. Aimee Carter – Pawn.

10838787Title: Pawn.
Author: Aimee Carter.
Pages: 346.
Expected publication: November 26th 2013 by Harlequin Tee
Sort: Part one of ‘The Blackcoat rebellion’
Source: Netgalley & Publisher.
For Kitty Doe, it seems like an easy choice. She can either spend her life as a III in misery, looked down upon by the higher ranks and forced to leave the people she loves, or she can become a VII and join the most powerful family in the country. If she says yes, Kitty will be Masked—surgically transformed into Lila Hart, the Prime Minister's niece, who died under mysterious circumstances. As a member of the Hart family, she will be famous. She will be adored. And for the first time, she will matter. There's only one catch. She must also stop the rebellion that Lila secretly fostered, the same one that got her killed …and one Kitty believes in. Faced with threats, conspiracies and a life that's not her own, she must decide which path to choose—and learn how to become more than a pawn in a twisted game she's only beginning to understand.

Pretty cover? Check. Interesting blurb? Check. Unfortunately the story couldn’t live up to my expectations and that was disappointing. I do recommend that you look on Goodreads, because most of the reviews are positive. This could be a case of ‘it’s me, not you.’ There are some great aspects, but it didn't WOW me enough.

Cast a Harry Potter spell (part 2)


You can find Part 1 and the introduction over here: Cast a HP spell part 1, cast a spell.  Jasmine from Flip that page made this awesome survey where we can cast Harry Potter spells on books. She made a list with spells and now I get to pick books that fit with the spell.

Review 215. Eliza Crewe – Cracked.

17345314Title: Cracked.
Author: Eliza Crewe.
Pages: 327.
Published: November 5th 2013 by Strange Chemistry 
Sort: Part one of ‘Soul eater’
Source: I received an eARC from the publisher in exchange for an honest review.
Meet Meda. She eats people.
Well, technically, she eats their soul. But she totally promises to only go for people who deserve it. She’s special. It’s not her fault she enjoys it. She can’t help being a bad guy. Besides, what else can she do? Her mother was killed and it’s not like there are any other “soul-eaters” around to show her how to be different. That is, until the three men in suits show up. They can do what she can do. They’re like her. Meda might finally have a chance to figure out what she is. The problem? They kind of want to kill her. Before they get the chance Meda is rescued by crusaders, members of an elite group dedicated to wiping out Meda’s kind. This is her chance! Play along with the “good guys” and she’ll finally figure out what, exactly, her ‘kind’ is. Be careful what you wish for. Playing capture the flag with her mortal enemies, babysitting a teenage boy with a hero complex, and trying to keep one step ahead of a too-clever girl are bad enough. But the Hunger is gaining on her. The more she learns, the worse it gets. And when Meda uncovers a shocking secret about her mother, her past, and her destiny… she may finally give into it.

Is this book the best book I’ve ever read? No, it isn’t, but it’s clever and funny enough to make it highly entertaining. There is an anti-heroin, a sarcastic girl, a cute boy and one who looks very arrogant at the outside, but it actually sweet on the inside. This combined with action and demons makes this book an enjoyable ride!

Review 214. Robin LaFevers - Dark Triumph.

9943270Title: Dark Triumph.
Author: Robin LaFevers.
Pages: 385.
Published:  April 2nd 2013 by Houghton Mifflin Books for Children
Sort: Part 2 of ‘His fair assassin’
Part one: Grave Mercy.
Sybella arrives at the convent’s doorstep half mad with grief and despair. Those that serve Death are only too happy to offer her refuge—but at a price. The convent views Sybella, naturally skilled in the arts of both death and seduction, as one of their most dangerous weapons. But those assassin's skills are little comfort when the convent returns her to a life that nearly drove her mad. And while Sybella is a weapon of justice wrought by the god of Death himself, He must give her a reason to live. When she discovers an unexpected ally imprisoned in the dungeons, will a daughter of Death find something other than vengeance to live for?

This book gave me a huge case of fangirling, because damn, this book is perfection. I was blown away by Grave Mercy, so it seemed impossible to top that – not. LaFevers created another brilliant story which comes together with Ismae and Duval *swoon* I can only imagine how good part three is going to be. I recently found out that this book is partly based on Beauty and the beast, so perhaps it's not a coincidence I love it so much.


Fairytale News | Why I love reading.

'Mel on reading' is a little feature I created as part of my Fairytale news. It's my way to show my thoughts on topics that go from pet peeves in reading to my favorite things in books.

I’m not sure if it’s just me, but I always find it hard to explain why I love to read. I truly believe I was born a reader and books complete my life. I’ve always been passionate about books and when I think about reading, my heart makes a happy jump and I get this warm, happy feeling. I’m proud to be a bookworm, so I’ve been thinking about it for a while and I’ve tried to come up with some reasons that makes reading important to me. The best way to show what I’m trying to say is using pictures that illustrate it. You can find all these pictures on my Pinterest board: “Reading is a way of life.”

1. I get to explore all these amazing worlds. It’s traveling without moving.What’s better than being able to site in a chair with your head in another world?

2. I make new friends with characters I can connect with, I can swoon over boys without troubles from the boyfriend (haha) and they are always there.
The best part? They will never judge you and they take you on their adventures.

3. Escaping reality. I love my life, but it’s sometimes wonderful to leave it behind to enjoy the comfort of another world.When I feel stressed, I love to forget that for a moment by diving into someone else’s life.

4. For a moment, I get to be someone else. I can be heroic and brave. I can be a total kick-ass.
Who doesn’t want to slay a dragon or be an assassin sometimes? We can be anything and anyone for a moment!

5. Not to forget that it’s scientific proven that reading has shown good effects on the brains and overall health!Just read this article and see for yourself: Benefits of reading. And that's only the beginning.

6. There is so much wisdom in books.
Reading showed me so many things I can use in real life. Some books are really a part of my life now, because they've showed & learned me valuable things.

7. I make friends all over the world. 
This shy girl who is afraid of meeting new people, got to meet some Dutch booklovers – and we are now a book club!  I never imagined this would happen and I'm so happy about it!

So to make a long story short, reading is the best. How about you?

Review 213. Anne Ursu – Breadcrumbs.

10637959Title: Breadcrumbs.
Author: Anne Ursu.
Pages: 312.
Published: September 27th 2011 by Walden Pond Press 
Sort: Stand-alone.
Once upon a time, Hazel and Jack were best friends. They had been best friends since they were six, spending hot Minneapolis summers and cold Minneapolis winters together, dreaming of Hogwarts and Oz, superheroes and baseball. Now that they were eleven, it was weird for a boy and a girl to be best friends. But they couldn't help it - Hazel and Jack fit, in that way you only read about in books. And they didn't fit anywhere else. And then, one day, it was over. Jack just stopped talking to Hazel. And while her mom tried to tell her that this sometimes happens to boys and girls at this age, Hazel had read enough stories to know that it's never that simple. And it turns out, she was right. Jack's heart had been frozen, and he was taken into the woods by a woman dressed in white to live in a palace made of ice. Now, it's up to Hazel to venture into the woods after him. Hazel finds, however, that these woods are nothing like what she's read about, and the Jack that Hazel went in to save isn't the same Jack that will emerge. Or even the same Hazel.

“She felt like she was from a different planet than her schoolmates and maybe it was true.”

This book is a creation of all the awesome things in the writing-world. There are great characters, different fairytales, illustrations and a wonderful, almost poetic writing-style. This book blew me away and it’s definitely a hidden gem. One I wouldn’t hesitate to recommend to other people. 

Review 212. Stacey Jay – Of beast and beauty.

16113606Title: Of beast and beauty.
Author: Stacey Jay.
Pages: 391.
Published:  July 23rd 2013 by Delacorte Press.
Sort: Stand-alone.

In the beginning was the darkness, and in the darkness was a girl, and in the girl was a secret... In the domed city of Yuan, the blind Princess Isra, a Smooth Skin, is raised to be a human sacrifice whose death will ensure her city’s vitality. In the desert outside Yuan, Gem, a mutant beast, fights to save his people, the Monstrous, from starvation. Neither dreams that together, they could return balance to both their worlds. Isra wants to help the city’s Banished people, second-class citizens despised for possessing Monstrous traits. But after she enlists the aid of her prisoner, Gem, who has been captured while trying to steal Yuan’s enchanted roses, she begins to care for him, and to question everything she has been brought up to believe. As secrets are revealed and Isra’s sight, which vanished during her childhood, returned, Isra will have to choose between duty to her people and the beast she has come to love. 

“Beauty is wherever you find it and Beast is there when you need to defend it.”

This book wasn’t as good as I wanted it to be, but I must say that my expectations were ridiculously high. Being a fairytale lover and fan of Beauty and the beast, that was inevitable. There were many things I enjoyed and in the end, I do recommend this book, but I was a bit let down by the characters.

Fairytale News | Embarrassing books?

'Mel on reading' is a little feature I created as part of my Fairytale news. It's my way to show my thoughts on topics that go from pet peeves in reading to my favorite things in books.

This discussion posts is based on a Feature & Follow topic I saw a while ago. It was about books we feel embarrassed about, because we loved them. This made me wonder: why would you feel ashamed? The same for reading: it seems to be a trend that youths feel embarrassed because they read. It makes me sad and I, being a reader all my life, don’t understand it.

For this I can link back to some of the posts I’ve made for my ‘Hard life of a reader’ series. People can be so judgmental when it comes to readers, but do you hear us ever say: “why do you watch television? Why do you listen to music? Why do you play games?” It’s almost the same as asking someone why he breaths or blinks with his eyes: it’s just something we do. Something we need to do, because reading is a way of life.

I never thought reading was something I’d have to defend to other people, like it’s some weird mental disease. I READ BECAUSE I LOVE IT. I’m not some kind of freak, I’m not lonely or in desperate need of company. And yes, I do other things too, but at the end of my day I love to return to my books. In fact, reading has opened this amazing world where I’ve learned people that are now an important part of my life. I’m able to connect with all these bookworms all over the world, how does that makes us any different or strange? What is embarrassing about that? (Although I must admit that I've been self conscious about being a reader when I was younger. I was already getting bullied, so this was not something I screamed from the roof tops. Now, I couldn't care less.)

So, back to the real topic: You should NEVER feel embarrassed for the books you read and love. Whether you are a fan of comics, YA, NA, adult books or even books for children of 1 year-old. There shouldn't be a label what you can and can't read. If you do something you love, you should feel happy. You should be able to talk about it and be proud of the things you like. Don’t change yourself just because people love to judge you: they will do it anyway. Keep your head up and let them talk. Don’t let anyone EVER make you feel ashamed for reading those books.


How about you? Are you ever embarrassed for the books you read or the fact that you are a reader?

Review 211. Patrick Ness – More than this.

17262303Title: More than this.
Author: Patrick Ness.
Pages: 480.
Published: September 10th 2013 by Candlewick Press 
Sort: Stand-alone.
A boy named Seth drowns, desperate and alone in his final moments, losing his life as the pounding sea claims him. But then he wakes. He is naked, thirsty, starving. But alive. How is that possible? He remembers dying, his bones breaking, his skull dashed upon the rocks. So how is he here? And where is this place? It looks like the suburban English town where he lived as a child, before an unthinkable tragedy happened and his family moved to America. But the neighborhood around his old house is overgrown, covered in dust, and completely abandoned. What’s going on? And why is it that whenever he closes his eyes, he falls prey to vivid, agonizing memories that seem more real than the world around him? Seth begins a search for answers, hoping that he might not be alone, that this might not be the hell he fears it to be, that there might be more than just this.

This book is a huge mindfuck. I seriously had no idea what was going on and I still have a feeling I don’t get the ending. lt’s probably at bit too spiritual to me and it just didn’t make any sense. Which is a shame, because I enjoyed the writing-styles and the characters. Up to 71% I was thinking around a 4 star rating, but with that strange and unfinished ending, I’m not sure anymore. It’s more around 2-3 and I’ve a feeling this book could have been more than this. This is also a very difficult review to write, but I’ll do my best.