I'm nervous and thought about not posting it.. I might take it offline after a while, but for now..
Dear young Mel,
Sometimes I want to go back and hug you, innocent, shy girl. I know it's sometimes hard for you to fit in, but please be yourself. There is no need to try to change yourself for others, you are good the way you are. Let them bully you all you want, you are better than them. I know that it would be too much to ask to stand up for yourself, so be strong. Enjoy the time you spend with the friendly people and ignore the uglies! Just remember that you are not alone. Keep reading the books you love; escape in the bookish world and feel loved by your family. Because remember:
Harry Potter, the boy who lived. Look how his so called 'family' bullies him. He is different and weird in their eyes, but one day his whole life changed. He found out that he is part of a world after all. He struggles, but he makes friends and even defeats the villain. Hermione, the cleverest witch of her age. Look how they laugh at her eagerness to learn and how they call her 'Mudblood'. She is so book wise and there are people who appreciate her for it. She may be shy and on the background, but her intelligence saves the day. Ron, 'the poor kid.' But look how he grows up in the same loving family you have. They care for him and are close. Marcel, the scared boy who shined in the end.
This is just the beginning. You will meet so many more awesome, strong characters. Your life will be filled with great books and you will fangirl and share that love with others. There will be a whole online community for you and you will make friends from all over the world! You will make real life friends too, don't worry. It might takes some time to find them, but I promise you, you will find them.
And not to forget, some day you will step out of your comfort zone. You will forget your shyness and how afraid you are to meet new people and you will start a book club. Don't believe me? Just wait for it. The future is fantastic and bright! :)
Feel beautiful and keep being awesome. Be the (proud) bookworm you are meant to be.
your wise, strong and happy older you.
PS: You'll still love Disney and you will have the best, sweetest & prettiest boy in the world! Together with all your bookish boyfriends of course ;)
So, this was kind of personal.. Books showed me so much when I was younger. It always has been a constant love/passion in my life. There is no need to change the past, so I don't think I would have handled things differently.. Therefore some hopeful and encouraging words to the younger me.